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Win a Handbag!

2008-10-04T14:20:00.003+08:00

This goes out to all bag lovers like me.. just click away. GOOG LUCK!

Win Yourself a Handbag

another sleepless day

2007-10-23T09:46:00.001+08:00

You don't ever stop loving someone... its more a matter of learning to deal with the pain of not having them anymore.

Blessed is he who expects nothing, for there shall never be disappointments.

rainy tuesday morning

2007-10-23T09:46:00.000+08:00

"Watching you walk away from me doesn't make me bitter or angry about love. It just makes me wonder, if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how wonderful it would be when the right one comes along..."

just some things off the top of my head..

2007-10-05T11:18:00.000+08:00

I rarely write (in this case type bleh) about my thoughts coz its too damn tiring.. and I hate getting mysef tired haha. But in this case, I'll make a little exception. I'm actually supposed to be making my letter of appeal (para makabalik from freakin AWOL sa univ) and here I am, using up brain cells putting my deranged thoughts into words. Talk about wasting precious time huh? Procrastination at its finest!

Anywho, back to me bwahahaha. I think a lot of people see me as this really happy (go-lucky more like it) type of person. Always smiling, always saying hellos, always carrying that freaking smile on my freaky face.. but do you honestly think I'm just like that? Would someone come up to me and pick my mind apart? Naxx.. manghuhula ka ba? Hulaan mo naman ako! Gaaad.. I am so effing tired! And I think I've turned into a psycho as well, aside from being the neurotic that I am haha! Punyeta naman kasi, pwede bang i-turn off ang sarili kahit saglit lang? As in mga 3days lang, tapos on na uli. Pahinga lang sa kakaisip. My personal dilemma is causing me to become such a wreck that its making the people close to me worried. I keep on getting sick and I'm not getting better. Call it psychosomasm (is that even a valid word?!) if you must, but I don't think whatever I try to do to alleviate myself, its not working for some effing reason. Am I too late? Did my immune system left me without saying goodbye (pati sa katawan, may bitterness ahaha!). I even broke my personal mantra of not taking any meds (placebo lang yan, no epek!) and bought some and self-medicated. Hmm come to think of it, it kinda helped a bit with one of my illnesses (ang dami eh shoot) but the others are still here, continuously making it unbearable for me at times. =(

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tangna nag-online pa si gago! malamang kakausapin ko sya, ako pa?! i hate him! i hate that i love him so.. =( he's asking for my help, how can I deny him that? how can I deny him anything? waah.. anuba, get a grip of yourself! say NO! dalawang letra lang na ita-type di pa magawa hmph! waah.. I'm helpless against his sadism towards me.. huhuhuh... must move on..
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before I end this, something from my friend/UP blockmate.. words of freaking wisdom that hit me right on the spot (ouch!):

"the art of letting go is mathematically proportional to the art of self-preservation. letting go and preserving oneself are crafts that can be mustered and mastered by people who want to get out of the crude vicious cycle. these skills are the summation of one's conscious conviction to be happy and complete in one's silence and solitude. loving yourself more by letting go of someone who loves you less will make you a better person. happiness is a responsibility. love is give and take. there is a supply of emotion because there is a demand for it. free yourself the burden of keeping the relationship and filling in the lost love. settling for anything less is not love but something else. redeem yourself by letting go. move on and live your life like you've never been hurt."

is this wrong?

2007-09-18T13:47:00.000+08:00

Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them?
The moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most, saying something and wishing you hadn't?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
They are the things you get ashamed of, because words are not enough to express them.
Words shrink things that seems timeless when they were in your head to no more than living sizes when they are brought out.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart.
But if you don't you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't.
You can never tell you heart what to do.
It does things in its own when you least expect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had but that person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us wall ourselves in because we are too afraid to care too much… for fear that our special person does not care as much or not at all.
Have you ever loved someone and they absolutely have no idea whatsoever?
Or fell for your best friend in the entire world and then sat around and watch him fall for someone else?
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because of fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
Or have you ever cast your feelings aside because you thought things were impossible?
We tell lies when we are afraid… afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grow stronger.
Life is all about risk, and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what he/she could have had.
Sometimes, life offers no second chances and makes us realize that no one waits forever.
So… cherish the past, it made you what you are.
Treasure the present, it's a timeless gift.
Pray for the future, it's where hopes are fulfilled and dreams become reality.
There are only two ways to live your life; one as though nothing is a miracle the other as though everything is.

thoughts to ponder

2007-08-25T08:18:00.001+08:00

"The only people that you need in your life are the ones who prove that they need you in theirs."

“The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion.”

The Story Of Me And My PLATONIC Friend

2007-07-23T15:22:00.000+08:00

Loving and not being loved in return.

A cliche.

Yet when it happens, it HURTS.

I'm not sure if this'll happen to everyone, so if this hasn't happened to you -- you ain't just lucky, you're blessed. So please be careful with people's hearts -- you'll never know how weak they are or how weak they can be because of you.

Do not have yourself too close to someone who isn't your bestfriend -- when you have to leave, she'll be miserable. Do not do her favors -- you'll become all she needs. She might not do without you. Do not spoil her -- she'll be looking for a you in the next guy she meets. She'll have a hard time.

Do not spend hours talking to her everyday -- when you're busy, she'll be depressed. Do not let her get used to knowing everything -- when she finds something out somewhere, she'll be upset.

Do not spend weekends with her -- she 'll just think she's special. Do not take her to romantic places if you're not meaning anything -- she will not realize that you're there just because there's no place else.

Do not care for her too much -- she'll think you love her. And if she learns that you don't, you'll break her heart.

If she's out, don't check if she's home. Don't ask if she's eaten. Forget her schedule. Do not tell her about things that reminds you of her. Stop the compliments. Do not introduce her to your friends. Don't let her talk to your siblings. Do not call her when you're drunk. Do not imagine things together. Forget future plans. When you're gone, she wouldn't know what to do.

Be fair. If she asks you to go, go. If she says she wants to go -- do not believe her right away. If she really means it, let her. Do not ask her to stay for other reasons than you and love. She will be happy to stay -- but YOU and love alone will be her reason. And if both will not be there -- let her go.

***A repost from Yayenz multiply

can't argue

2007-07-14T11:53:00.000+08:00

The two hardest tests on the spiritual road: The patience to wait for the right moment and the courage not to be disappointed with what you encounter.

...

2007-07-14T11:05:00.000+08:00

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know he won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.

When it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.

I hate you...and then I love you...it's like I want to throw you off a cliff....then rush to the bottom to catch you.

We are never so defenseless against suffering as when we love.

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.

When you give someone your whole heart and he doesn’t want it, you cannot take it back. It’s gone forever.

There’s nothing quite so humbling as thinking you’re completely over someone, then realizing you’re not even close.

What I want to know is this: If love’s so great, why do you fall into it? You fall into a puddle. You fall into the mud. You fall into the abyss.

A woman is only destined to have her heart broken if she hands it over to someone too weak, too careless, or too distracted to hang on to it.

The worst thing: to give yourself away in exchange for not enough love.

A heart can be broken, but it will keep beating just the same.

If I had had a pistol I would have shot him—either that or fallen at his feet. There is no middle way when one loves.

The relationship went bad for all sorts of reasons, not because you’re a screwup. Take responsibility for your part, and then let it go. You were many wonderful things to many people before you met him—don’t let this one event define who you are.

Love was more than blind. It was deaf and dumb, too. It was catatonic. It was vegetative.

well

2007-07-12T12:20:00.000+08:00

"In time of great love, even the soup of bitter vegetable is sweet.. but when love becomes stale, even sugar is bitter." -Phra Aphaimani

*****

hayup sa mga emote noh.. haaaay! ano ba ang nangyayari sa life ng bakla? bakit parang lagi na lang down the drain ang drama? ewan ko ba. bitter ba aketch? might be. can be. possibly. ganito siguro talaga ang nangyayari sa mga taong grasa. nalulunod sa kanal. tapos hindi na makaahon. tapos tinatambakan na ng kung ano-ano. naalala ko na naman tuloy, buraot yun mga mag-syota na ang tawagan eh ma at pa. puk**angna kayo. ayun, bitter nga si ate.

ouchy

2007-06-29T15:08:00.000+08:00

then again

2007-06-27T09:48:00.001+08:00

"Death, the refuge, the solace, the best and kindliest and most prized friend and benefactor of the erring, the forsaken, the old and weary and broken of heart."

again and again

2007-06-20T14:03:00.000+08:00

On broken hearts, from Mr. Write (2003) by M.D. Balangue:

What happens when someone breaks your heart?

When someone breaks your heart, first you are shocked. Someone will say you are heartbroken and you examine the words break and heart and heartbroken and you immediately decide that it’s inaccurate. You feel pain in the region of your heart and you think it’s your heart breaking but one’s heart doesn’t really break, something else does — faith. You stop believing.

No, not in the big things which are most of the time irrelevant. You still believe in God or Buddha or some Supreme Being, you still believe child prostitution is bad. You just stop believing in the small things that you do, the small things that give meaning to your daily life, and you begin to think everything is pointless: Why get up? Why dress up? Why breathe in and out? What for? What for?

<...> When someone breaks your heart, you turn into a small ball of self-pity. You lie in bed, in a ball. You hug your knees, keeping them close to your chest, like a fetus. Freud said it’s human instinct to go back to the womb where we can feel safe.

But that’s what happens when someone breaks your heart — they steal the very thing that makes you feel safe, whole, intact. (pp. 70-71)

*****
hango sa Multiply ni Frances

tired

2007-06-10T11:28:00.000+08:00

2007 na pala, parang ngayon ko lang na-realize. parang ngayon lang uli ako huminto para pansinin ang nasa paligid ko at magnilay-nilay. ayus, papaka-artista na naman.. the last time I complained of being tired and wrote about it was well, read here.. right now, I just wanna think back on all the things I've done and possibly pinpoint exactly where it all started to go down the drain. hay. this is me being pessimistic all over again. June na rin pala.. parang kahapon lang eh year-end tapos ngayon pasukan na naman! potek, I hate getting stuck in traffic! I hate the fact na baka morning shift na kami.. sana night na lang.. I hate a lot of things these past few months. I think I'm reverting back to.. =(
anywho, here I am re-reading my first and second blog and found several things that kinda made me smile. akala ko kasi super walang kwenta ng mga posts ko dun, di naman pala. like the one about how I got myself a folding bed.. what my very first blog post was about.. how much I dislike Valentines.. the time my Papa had his operation and I was super worried.. my fave Neruda poem.. me ranting.. ranting again.. and wanting to cry.. making resolutions.. mga pangyayari nun January 2006.. making kwento about my OJT.. my very short but very happy post about my Sagada trip.. my first time eek! my stories during the start of my very first job.. ang supposed resignation.. being sad and far, far away.. and then coming back home.. waaaaaaaaaaaaah! ang konti lang pero ang dami pa rin.. haha!! baklang baliw is back!

truth be told

2007-05-25T18:17:00.000+08:00

The man who gets the most satisfactory results is not always the man with the most brilliant single mind, but rather the man who can best coordinate the brains and talents of his associates. – W. Alton Jones

pichurs from multiply

2007-05-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

Cavite Team Building at Banio Kreek Farms
Banio Kreek Oct 2006
Rainforest Getaway!
CVG Xmas Party
AHT Eat Off (Dec)
Cinconians AHT EAT-OFF
Seafood Island Gateway xmas party '06
Team Cinconians Xmas Party 2006
Olive's bday bash (02.02.07)
Galera 2007

walang magawa

2007-05-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Midland "You have a Midland accent" is just another way of saying "you don't have an accent." You probably are from the Midland (Pennsylvania, southern Ohio, southern Indiana, southern Illinois, and Missouri) but then for all we know you could be from Florida or Charleston or one of those big southern cities like Atlanta or Dallas. You have a good voice for TV and radio.
The West
Boston
The Northeast
The Inland North
Philadelphia
North Central
The South
What American accent do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

anubers!

2007-04-23T17:22:00.000+08:00

"The most hurtful kind of lies are the ones delivered by the people you care about the most.. It makes you doubt everything you know and makes you wonder why you care so much and worst of all, it puts you in the position of deciding whether to tell them you know they're lying or act like you're too dull to even know the difference.. Keep this in mind the next time you lie to someone who cares about you, because more often than not, they know and it hurts a lot.." --- Grey's Anatomy

When you sleep with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.. =(

You won't fully enjoy a swing unless you raise your feet from the ground.. You won't fully enjoy a boat ride unless you remove the rope's knot from the river bank.. Your dog won't fully enjoy his/her "dog life" unless you remove the chain on his/her neck.. Never ever limit yourself when it comes to happiness, learn how to let go and move on.. Life is beautiful..

I always wanted to be free, to fly away and never return.. To soar up high till the height may never be seen.. But then, somewhere beyond that, I wished to be owned, to be held, and to have never been let go..

You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.

and it all boils down to this

2007-04-19T16:21:00.000+08:00

Never say that someone completes you. We have to feel whole even when we are by ourselves, for needing a certain someone is not love but dependency. Wanting a person to become a part of our life is the best reason for having them, and you can only want when you know you have enough. So rather than search for that someone who will complete you, wait for the person who will complement your completeness.

the one that got away

2007-04-14T04:29:00.000+08:00

The one that got away
Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

*****
Emailed to me by a certain someone who contributed a great deal into how I am today.

homebase

2007-04-14T03:19:00.000+08:00

at nakauwi na rin ako, sa wakas! hehe! achooli, last week pa, dumating ako apr5 ng 1130pm mula sa bayan ng milkshakes. ang unang nasabi ko pagbaba ng eroplano, "nam$%@#$ naman! ang init!!!" hehe, ang arte na! sooobrang init naman talaga kasi, kapag pumapasok ako sa trabaho ng madaling araw, mainit na rin hindi kagaya ng dati. im glad to be back, iba pa rin talaga ang pilipinas. kahit anong sabihin nila, ayoko manirahan dun. unless na lang siguro na life and death situation na, haha. dito pa rin ako, mahirapan na kung mahirapan at least di kasing lungkot ng nasa malayo ka at mag-isa. dramaaaaa!

verità

2007-03-16T18:37:00.000+08:00

"There will come a time in your life when you will be attached to a single person, for this person, you'd do anything and not think twice about it.. but when asked why, you have no answer.
You'll try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as that person does but you'll never find out.. and no matter how badly you hate it or how badly it hurts.. you still love this person without regrets."

stuff i've done throughout my lifetime

2007-03-15T06:59:00.000+08:00

From Nina’s multiply.

Things You've Done
Copy, bold the things you’ve done and post. Here are mine:

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said “I love you” and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse of the moon.
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone’s life

and counting

2007-03-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

haaay.. im still here, and guess what? i still wanna go home! waaaaah! all i do here is go online and watch tv.. oh yeah, and eat! we go to casinos from time to time but its not that fun, well for me it isnt coz i hate wasting good money haha.. right now im killing time by watching music videos on youtube.com, trying to find concert videos of queen performing their hits and so far, im enjoying it. i even found a number vids of my favorite queen song, somebody to love, yeyeh! haaay.. hope the following days would go by quickly, im dying to get home!

Countdown before my flight back: 22days

alone and sad

2007-03-07T07:33:00.000+08:00

Im here all alone in Vegas and its killing me.. I so badly want to go home.. as in! haaaay.. kung ang layo lang nito e tipong Cebu to Manila e hindi naman ako magkakaganito but nooo, thousands of miles away! nasa 10-15000 miles away.. huhu.. haay Im thriving on text messages from my office friends, ym-ing with good friends.. emails from my TL and other people.. waaah.. aside from that, wala na akong magawa. I don't have the drive to go out, wala akong gana. I miss my room, my pillows, my family, my friends, my work, the traffic, the stress, shiyeeet I miss my life!!!!! sana next entry ko is better than this one.

Countdown before my flight back: 29days

PASINGIT LANG PO!

2007-03-03T19:32:00.000+08:00

Hey! If anyone needs to contact me for any important or not-so-important reason (or for ANY reason at all, haha), please try to reach me through this number: 09276543899. I'll be using this number for the whole month of March until 5th of April. My other number will be inactive for the time being but I will use it right after the date abovementioned. Just send me a message, preferably with your email address if you need a reply from me and I'll try to get back to you as soon as I can. I'll see you all when I get back!

killing time

2007-02-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

got this from Sarah.. she got it from Quizbox though.. ^_^

** Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

randomness

2007-02-22T23:38:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
-- Sandman: The Kindly Ones by Neil Gaiman

We were never loves, and we never will be, now. I do not regret that, however. I regret the conversations we never had, the time we did not spend together. I regret that I never told him that he made me happy, when I was in his company. The world was the better for his being in it. These things alone do I now regret: things left unsaid. And he is gone, and I am old.
-- Sandman: The Wake by Neil Gaiman

we beached!

2007-02-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

Just got home after another wonderful adventure with equally wonderful people.. so loving it! Photo taken while drinking famous Mindoro Sling with the sunset behind us.. and a foreigner with a local if you can see.. haha!! That bikini-clad "Tropical Princess" by the way, is none other than my boss.. you can't get luckier than having a boss like that! Love ya TL! ^_^

tamad-itis

2007-02-16T12:25:00.000+08:00

Nanggaling na naman ako sa Baguio (Feb5-8) wahaha!! I never get tired of it.. at shempre dahil meron na kong ixusbaby, I can take lots and lots of pichurs!! I soooo love it! bwahahahaha!! ^_^

Since I got a leave from work (last week, kaya nakapag-Baguio), it has become such a tedious task for me to wake up and drag myself to the office every morning.. Ewan ko ba, katamad! Parang may malaking anvil na nakakabit sa mga binti ko na pinipigalan ang pag-usad ko.. nakana! haha! Hindi ko alam kung kelan ako matitigil sa trabaho pero ewan ko ba, parang paikot-ikot na lang ako. Minsan motivated, minsan buraot na buraot.. Iniisip ko kasi, what if I stopped working? Halos a year na rin ako sa ganitong environment.. titigil ako mag-work tapos babalik ako ng school.. pero anong babalikan ko? Yeah I know, may thesis pa pero aside from that? Do I still have friends there? I'm really not sure.. I don't want to think about it, really.

Anyway, I'm excited again coz next week, another long break from work! Sa Galera naman kami.. pers taym ko ayihi... baka di na ko makauwi.. mawala ako.. mahulog sa ferry.. makatulog sa bus at iwanan ng team mates ko.. huhuhuhuhuh.. ayoko na sumama! waaah!

just another Vday

2007-02-16T10:32:00.000+08:00

got this from a friend, sent via email.. swak sa Valentine's nung isang araw haha!

**LOVE CHORVA

You may conquer with the sword, But you are conquered by a kiss" ~Daniel Heinsius

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous"~Ingrid Bergman

"If music be the food of love, play on"~Shakespeare

"It is never too late to fall in love"~Sandy Wilson

"Love is like an hour glass, with the heart filling up as the brain empties"~Jules Renord

Love is not finding someone to live with, It's finding someone you can't live without. ~Rafael Ortiz

"Where there is great love , there are always miracles" ~Willa Cather

"You call it Madness, but I call it Love" ~Don Byas

"Where there is love, there is life"~Mahatma Gandhi

Love conquers all.~Virgil

"The heart has its reasons, which reason does not know."~Pascal

"At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet."~Plato

To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven~Karen Sunde

"Why is it when you love someone so much that you can never find the right words to tell them?"-alb to justin

Women are made to be loved, not understood. ~Oscar Wilde

"Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away." - Dorothy Parker

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more." - Erica Jong

"Sometimes love is stronger than a man's convictions." - Isaac Bashevis Singer

"Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness." - Oliver Wendell Holmes

"Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it." - Robert Mitchum

"Love stretches your heart and makes you big inside." - Margaret Walker

"Love has no awareness of merit or demerit; it has no scale... Love loves; this is its nature." - Howard Thurman

"Love is like war: Easy to begin but hard to end." - Anonymous

"Love consists in this, that two solitudes protect and touch and greet each other." - Rainer Maria Rilke

"Where love is, no room is too small." - Talmud

"Loves makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place." - Zora Neale Hurston

"Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." - Mark Twain

"A love song is just a caress set to music." - Sigmund Romberg

"Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit." - Peter Ustinov

"Love is like a violin. The music may stop now and then, but the strings remain forever." - unknown

"To love someone is to understand each other, to laugh together, to smile with your heart and to trust one another. One important thing is to let each other go if you can't do this."

"Love, an emotion so strong that you would give up everything, to just feel it once, to know that you are part of something special. To know that you can feel what love really is, to know, to feel, to love."

Music is love in search of a word

"The sweetest joy, the wildest woe is love"

Love is like a fire. Whether it is going to warm your hearth or burn your house down, you'll never know

Love is like a butterfly. It goes where it pleases and it pleases where it goes.

Happiness is to love and to be loved.

True love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends.

Letting go is one way of saying i love you

"Love turns winter into summer."

"No man is worth your tears, and the one who is won't make you cry."

"Some people care too much. I think it's called love."